So in this past month...

I've had way, way, WAY too much going on within my mind and with everything else in my life. _{This first part shall be directed to one person in particular.} Many apologies to Seminon for dropping off the face of the DeviantART world in the middle of conversations and roleplay. There have been a few things taking up my time more than I had expected them to. I will get back to the roleplay as soon as humanely possible. The fact that I haven't responded has irritated me to virtually no end.

For everyone in general, I dropped off the face of DeviantART and Wikia due to an extensive period of self-rediscovery for I don't know which time it is now. This is a common occurrence for me during these times, as I have so much going on inside t hat I tend to forget everything going on outside. And combine self-exploration with therapy for my mental and emotional health, which is also heavily tied into my present period of rediscovery, and we get me being absent from usual haunts. Facebook is primarily due to the fact that it is a part of my rediscovery experience, oddly enough. That and Melissa contacting me there so much as well as having the iPod app for it. Hmm. Yeah. This is weird. I guess it's the two groups she got me into on there. Yep.

On that note, let's just say it also took this long for Melissa and everyone else to get through my thick skull and tell me it's time to be true to myself and not try to please everyone else. A lot of this actually happens to be on a spiritual level, and now it's time for me to finally speak up clearly and be more forward with my dad about what I need. Church isn't working out for me, and I find myself unable to believe in the same things I did as a child. Even the Tarot readings that have been done lately are telling me that I need to be true to myself. Is it easy? Hell no! It's pretty scary, actually. People are used to seeing me wearing a cross, and know I'm pretty well known in the small church I've been going to. To suddenly not show up anymore and wearing a different symbol--I'm really not sure how people will take that. But I also can't let that stop me. If I'm going to be true to myself, basically I have to drop what isn't working like the autumn leaves. It doesn't matter if I'm 'ready' or not, I have no other options before me. I'll be too miserable if I turn back now.

Now that you've gotten through the heavy part of this entire thing, there is some lighter stuff going on. I am, le gasp!, back to drawing again. I've got several characters drawn out, and I've finally gotten the cutie Sora drawn. Came out cuter than I expected, too. By the way, he's like a very affectionate cat, and he loves hugs. I got some new pencils last month or so, and it's a little manga art thing with a small tutorial booklet (if you can even call it that) and it's given me some helpful tips. I ended up with a blue non-copy pencil which I've made very good use of. Now I just need to clear my printer off and hook it up to my computer to share my new art.
And why does Rachel now remind me of freaking Germaine Avadonia?! I think it's the short hair.
Anyway... Also, if you see a bunch of moons drawn... Yeah, that's going to happen. I have this fixation-borderline-obsession with the moon. There will probably also be a few other things being doodled nigh constantly, but I won't fill you in on them at this time.

Also, I hope everyone who got to see it enjoyed the blue moon Friday night. I know I did, that's for sure. That was a great night.